freelance post

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i don't have much to say. iv'e been writing songs on my own. i sleep a lot. i can't seem to get my computer to work anymore. so i record everything i play on a separate phone. i feel so empty inside. i don't know whats going on. all i'm thinking is "why did this happen to me" there is no way to explain how i feel inside. no one has gone through the pain that i am in. if my pain can be expressed through music. it would be like going from a G power chord to a B7 chord in a fast beat when you're barely beginning to learn. i am certain of failure every single day. i know i am not going to college. i probably won't even graduate high school. these days have been tough. i am certain of death before the age of 30. i am certain my band won' t be good. i am a very negative person and think about failure before success. i don't need a therapist to make me answer my own problems. all a therapists does is ask you questions until you answer what is wrong with you. i know what's wrong with me. i just don't want to tell no one. i have this urge to be hurt. the feeling of pain and seeking danger/near death experiences are the only things making me feel alive. there is no reason to live. there is no one hoping i lie. all around me are a bunch of people that despise me because i am able to be who i am. i don't care if people don't like me. i will not act like another person to make friends. either people like me because of who i am or they don't. i am what they call a "real" friend. i can name 30 fake friends in this class and in other classes. 

reflection

Reflection:

Write an overall final reflection in this post regarding the "Six  Ways to Make People Like You".  Include your deepest thoughts and feelings. Write what you commit to do to apply the Six Rules.

I honestly don't care if people like me or not. I try to be different than others. I like to think there's only one of me and by making sure there is one of me i act like no other person. There is no way to make someone like you. They either like you or don't. And i don't complain if they don't. And i'm not gonna be fake to make friends. The only true friends are the ones that accept you for who you are. There is no other way to put this. This is what i think about the reflection.

how to not be a LOSER

Narrator) Hey kids have you felt lonely?
Audience) Yeah!!
Narrator) well don't you worry with this new ctr gadget you will be as cool as me.
Audience) How is that suppose to make us cooler?
Narrator) in some easy steps. First you get a rope. Second you make sure it fits your head and neck. Now this last part is essential for making friends. Get on a chair, put the ROPE on your neck and throw the other end over a something that can support your weight. now have someone push the chair.
Audience) I am willing top dollar for this gadget!
Narrator) If you pay an extra 900 dollars ill throw in a chair and extra rope for your family. It's the gift everyone wants!